The Woman Behind The Name 

My Mystic & Mother abilities activated at the ripe age of 12. 

What a wild time it was.

Quite suddenly and intensely, I had these abilities of:

- Deep Truth Psyche Understanding & Psychic Spiritual Vision/Intuition: The Mystic.

- Vast Nurturing, Emotional Intelligence & Protector of the Innocent Knowledge & Strength: The Mother.  

At the time, I had no knowledge or understanding that these were the abilities I was manifesting.

Nor was my environment supportive or understanding of these abilities.

I was just me, a kid, that every hurting person seemed drawn to like a magnet, and I felt the compulsion and responsibility to help. 

Little did I know, the abilities I was given, would first feel and manifest like a curse, before I could ever see them as a gift.

I was poisoned by the belief that I was sinful and had to rid myself of myself, in order to be worthy of love and pleasing to God.

This belief poisoned my gifts.

Though I saw myself in this way, as indoctrinated by my parents, I never viewed others in this way. 

Others were worthy of everything I wasn’t worthy of. 

I believed I was guilty and they were all innocent.

While supporting them through their pain, I protected everyone from who I was inside and my own pain. 

I gave from a place of self abandonment instead of self abundance.

While it can still be effective, it will eventually kill you.

And that is exactly what it did.

I completely depleted myself.

So I after finally realized that I was also worthy of using my own abilities on myself, I went on my deep inner journey.

I separated the toxic from the pure.

I could not hold both anymore and live.

I let go of everything I was told I had to love.

I lost everything.

The cost was incredibly high.

I spent 20+ years intentionally cultivating, refining, alchemizing, losing and gaining, in order to master myself and my abilities. 

A hard & gruelling path.

But I did it.

I achieved the mission I set out to accomplish.

Turns out, I lost nothing that held true value.

What I lost was all that claimed to be love, but poisoned me with its words and actions. 

And I gained all that is value in its place. 

I gained all that is life-giving. 

I gained true love.